Habits are at first cobwebs, then cables.
Spanish Proverb
Habits. All of us have them. Some habits are good and well, I would venture to say, many if not most of our habits we have are not so good. Habits of procrastinating our lives away to the fatal mistake of thinking we always have tomorrow to fulfill our dreams, many of the habits we have are not necessarily based on physical inaction but on the way we think. We cannot think ‘we can’t’ and then end up doing what we initially think we can’t do in the first place. How can we move forward based on the foundation of thought that believes ‘we can’t’? Our thoughts become who we are and then those same thoughts end up stealing away our life force and then in turn, our force of life. Many times, I have pondered my own inadequacies of inaction. Those forces of doubt and unbelief that seem to so easily cripple me from doing what I love to do. So many times I wonder why I don’t do them. In those moments of contemplation I seem to connect the dots to my childhood and not just my childhood alone because all the dots are connected to the here and now. It’s just the now is restrained by the rope of my past that has lassoed the very elements of the moment’s excitement of stepping out of the cocoon of my fears. So many times I wonder 'why do I not do the things I know to do or those that I love to do?' For instance, I love to write and for awhile I was writing every day. At one point I had set up as a goal to write no less than a thousand words a day, which in turn led me to begin 'three' books, two of which are fairly full of matter and thoughts. So, why did I stop writing every day? If I love writing, why don't I write? I think, hidden in the veil of excuses as to the reason why I don't write would be the real reason, and the answer can only be found in answering the question...why write?Why should I write in the first place? Is it to inspire you? Is it to inspire others? Do I desire to write for all the wrong reasons and is this why in the end I lose my desire to write? These may seem like silly questions but to me these are the questions or it is THEE question that must be answered before I can break the chain of my habit of inaction. As in most things in life, I must find purpose to what I am doing...the why? I have been around long enough to know, if I do anything, whether it be writing or exercising or whatever I find myself doing, if I am doing it for anyone else but myself, it will ultimately end in failure. It will, in the long run, fizzle out. But if I find the purpose in it, then I will have the right foundation to build upon and it grow and grow until it becomes what my life has meant it to become.
In this crazy world of overwhelming and sometimes sensory crippling information overload, we have come to learn all the right sayings and motivational ploys. We can repeat different quotes and the most positive cliches sit right on the tips of our tongues but to say them and to do them are two completely different animals. I can easily say...'life is short, live it!', but to really live in the moment's of this short life can be a daunting task. I can blurt out the words, 'Anger is bad, dump it!', but when my anger boils over from within, I seem to dump it in all the wrong ways. I can tell you, 'Fear is awful, face it!', but say those words to you while cowering behind my own walls of inner turmoil and dismay. It's easy to say, 'Memories are sweet, cherish them!', but how many times do I really cherish those moments in time and in the proverbial sense of life, 'stop and smell the roses'? Obviously, to fulfill a dream only to fulfill my own lusts or doing something deemed detrimental to society is not what I am talking about here. I am talking about finding your purpose and then pursuing it to the utmost gusto and vigor of life. When I look at all the reasons why I don't do what I deeply want to do, there are no right reasons to justify the inaction.
Jack Canfield said, “Don’t worry about failures, worry about the chances you miss when you don’t even try.” And so today, this is what I am going to do. I am going to begin writing again. I am not going to write for YOU or to become 'famous' or for any other reason than this...I am going to write because I enjoy writing. I am going to write every morning and I will break the chains of inaction until writing becomes a part of who I am. You are more then welcome to join me. You can join me by reading when I post what I write. You can join me by breaking down your own walls of inaction and bad habits. You can join me by criticizing what I write because that will only make me stronger. Today, I write for me and more importantly, I write for the Lord who has given me the breath of life and has called me out of darkness and into his marvelous light! And now, as I write this last sentence of my initial flight from inaction...it feels so good to write again!
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